Music is a powerful thing... It means something to writer/performer but it may speak a completely different message or meaning to the person listening to it...
Sometimes I just put on my earbuds and lose myself in music. I find that certain songs can lift and lighten my heart and mind when I'm lost on my own emotions.
Recently I have been listening to the song "Burning House" by country musician Cam, this song instantly struck a cord within my heart. During an interview on the radio Cam had talked about how this song was about a past love but for me the lyrics made me think of a past me... The me that was scared and afraid and would try to hide herself away from dealing with the emotions building up inside me...
The section of song that speaks to me the most is:
I've been sleepwalking, been wandering all night
Trying to take what's lost and broke and make it right
I've been sleepwalking too close to the fire
But it's the only place that I can hold you tight
In this burning house
For so long I felt lost and broken with no end in sight, but as time went on and I discovered my own strength and courage and I was able to see that I wasn't broken. The truth is I feel like a different person all together... Who I was then is still apart of me but the person I am now holds that person I once was tight to ease the pain.
I never want to be that person again but I also don't want to let her go, I wish I could go back in time as the person I am now to ease her pain and give her the feeling of safety and love. I have posted Cam's video below, take a few minutes to listen to this beautiful song...
Thanks for reading, God Bless!
<3 Talie Marie
Author ~ Talie Marie
I have decided to keep a digital journal/blog to share my day to day experiences with my life after sexual assault and with my charity The Talie Marie Foundation. I have over the years tried to do both and unfortunately I hadn't had success, this will help me not only be more consistent but also help me with opening myself up to the people around me. I believe in that having hope & opening your heart with forgiveness has been a large part of my recovery process. I'm a member of the RAINN Speakers Bureau, The nation's largest anti-sexual violence organization. I decided to join the RAINN team in the spring of 2011 along with writing and working to publish my book about my own experiences dealing with sexual and domestic violence in my life to be release in 2017. I have dedicated my life to raising awareness and educating victims and their families on the resources available to them not only in the USA but worldwide. Thank you for taking this journey with me. ~ Talie Marie